'cause it's so primal.

i'm going to burning man next summer.



i understand that i've been inviting you all to many things lately, but you know... you're invited.

p.s. i hope you all notice, and appreciate my use of images on this blog. i try pretty damn hard.

desert island all time top five albums for winter.

in winter, certain things happen that can't be avoided. windshields need to be scraped, grandma is repeatedly run over by reindeer, i bake a lot more and shave my legs a lot less, and i listen to certain albums, because, well... i just have to. my itunes library is currently at 13,800 songs, and for almost every single one of those songs, i can imagine a certain drive, a certain night, a certain person that will go with that song permanently in my mind. those things all contribute to why i MUST listen to these albums a LOT in winter.


1. death cab for cutie - the photo album.



i have a mostly-hate-rarely-love relationship with death cab. they have a lot of almost entirely crap albums, but i could never think that the photo album was anything but the best. listen to: 'i was a kaleidoscope,' 'information travels faster,' and if you can find the acoustic version of 'a movie script ending,' that, too. old death cab, how i wish you hadn't changed.


2. radiohead - ok computer



during the winter of tenth grade i went to go see the return of the king with two of my best friends. a boy, who may or may not have been my first kiss, and a girl who was the first friend i made when i moved to florida. in the car we listened to ok computer. they kissed after they dropped me off, and it turned into one of those weird high school things. her sister was walking down the aisle to 'let down' around the same time. i feel like i'm sitting at the south florida/edgewood light every time i listen to it. besides 'let down,' i'd pay attention to 'electioneering' and 'exit music (for a film).'

3. damien rice - o.



in high school, i also spent a lot of time at this place called mitchells coffee house downtown. this rad kid stephen worked there, and i went almost every weekend night and hung out with him, talking about lost, and listening to this album. especially 'amie,' 'delicate,' and 'i remember.' sometimes in 'i remember,' at the part when she says "your mouth, your mouth, your mouth," i cry. don't judge me. it's one of those freakishly moving things.

4. belle & sebastian - if you're feeling sinister



i used to smoke weed and listen to this album. this was a point in my life when i also hated being in utah (90% of why i was getting high), and 'get me away from here i'm dying' was my favorite song. i was into this really quiet kid jayson, but when he got going, he would sing every word to this song, in an octave higher than god intended any man to sing. it was precious. i'm a strange girl that is attracted to strange things. other great songs on the album: 'me and the major' and 'mayfly.'


5. mewithoutyou - it's all crazy! it's all false! it's all a dream! it's alright!



i saw mewithoutyou this summer, on their tour for this album, and they were brilliant. in between songs they asked if we were hungry and then handed us a big brown bag of scones and muffins. it was beautiful. i've liked mewithoutyou for a wicked long time, back in their 'post-hardcore' days, and this album is decidedly different, but i still like it a whole lot. considering it came out this spring and i listened to it all summer, i'm not sure why it's a winter album, but i have an idea. the lyrics of 'timothy hay' talk about december in a way that makes me shiver. that's probably enough. it's my new winter album. 'the fox, the crow and the cookie,' and 'allah, allah, allah' are other swell songs, but this is the album that was hardest to pick out highlights from.

that's that. winter albums. make yourself a mix cd.

thru-hiker-to-be.

as a wee child in massachusetts i loved hiking in the hills there. saying something like that makes me sound like i'm a hundred years old, but honestly, the forests there were so much better to me than the sandbar that we moved to. fast forward and a a few days ago i started reading a walk in the woods. bill bryson is a funny guy. and i've decided that i'm going to hike the whole thing.



maine to georgia. well... technically i'm going to go georgia to maine.



i'll start in march probably. cooler in the south and it'll be warmer in the north when i get there.



for every birthday and christmas and tax refund for a while i'm going to get a sleeping bag and one of those precious tiny tents that weighs and ounce and indestructible silverware and all those other fun necessities.



i'm gonna go the summer of 2011, i'm thinkin'.

the great debate is whether or not to go alone.

1. people keep you sane and two people make more noise than one to keep black bears away.
2. going alone would be WAY more gnarly and i'd be a thousand times more proud of myself. it might be nice to not see another human for a month or so, too. it supposedly takes fives months or so, but you know... fellow hikers and whatnot.

you guys should come, though. when push comes to shove, methinks i'm gonna wanna be with someone.

anita hill said it... not me.

oh wait so here's something that's kind-of funny.

i've been writing for some zines lately (you should read all of them), and in one, MUSIC THAT DOESN'T SUCK, i wrote a thing about third-wave feminism and riot grrrl, that ended up mostly being about anita hill and clarence thomas.



i wrote something about thomas's habit of describing bestiality and gang rape from porn to hill. my esteemed editor called me the day after i'd e-mailed it to him and asked me if it was honestly bestiality and gang rape. my thoughts stumbled around and i found one of several of the websites i'd used for reference. it had actually been bestiality, group sex, and rape. my brain just made it a two-for-one.

my mistake, right?

WRONG.

way to be a champ, clarence thomas.



p.s. up there... where it says, MUSIC THAT DOESN'T SUCK? all in capital letters like that? that's a link. not a very good one yet, but still, push on it.

high school in myspace.

i know, right? this is stupid. but oh, so easy to post. and you know. every time i make a post i immediately think of another one i wanna do, SO... if i do this nothing one, maybe afterward i'll say to myself, "HEY SELF! write about this awesome thing i just thought of!" you dig?


recent favorites/frequents

drinks:
1. waterrr. a LOT.
2. cider 'cause it's fall.
3. cherry coke 'cause duh.

records:
1. where the wild things are - karen o & the kids.
2. far - regina spektor.
3. minor threat's complete discography.

movies:
1. trainspotting.
2. annie hall.
3. SLC punk!

tv:
1. the sopranos.
2. the sopranos.
3. the oc. maybe. but this is NOT me admitting it.

activities:
1. knitting. outside.
2. writing. outside.
3. drawing. with charcoal. outside.

foods:
1. zucchini.
2. pasta.
3. peanut butter anything.

things i'm looking forward to:
1. employment.
2. contact with provo. weird, right?
3. thanksgiving. and doing it for myself for the first time ever.

goals i have:
1. to go back to school... & finish.
2. to get a car maybe? hopefully?
3. to stop being more or less homeless. you know, like, stop sleeping on an air mattress.



so... i don't think this worked as i hoped.

whatever.